Happy Mother’s Day

Dear Mom,

I hope this finds you well.

I have paid so much in therapy bills to get to the point where I can forgive you. Maybe “forgive” isn’t quite the right word. It’s more like coming to terms with, and being ok with who you are. I want to believe you did your best, and that you were just hurting, too. I want to believe you loved me. I want to believe you wanted the best for me.

I don’t believe any of those things, but I want to. I’m sending this letter into the void to get it out of my head because I can’t keep thinking and rethinking about all the times you shredded my heart. Maybe if I tell the whole world, yet nobody at all, I will find closure.

I am a good person because I had a bad mother. I am a strong person because you tried to make me weak. I am who I am because of you. Thanks for that. Happy Mother’s Day, I hope you’re happy now.

Warmest regards,
Liz